Another 20th..
But at least I got my letter,
I hate the 20th of each much with a passion manly because I miss My A.J and everything about her.. she was my person, my best friend, I just wasn't her best friend..
Sometimes platonic friendships hurt just as much as break-ups, It's strange..
People will say get over it, it's been a while now.
I met her over TikTok on the 20th November 2022, she was the cutest 27 year old, her personality gave me life, I miss the person I was with her, I think she has the best parts of me.
A new friendship, could be a day, a month a year, I think a year tops is usually people's limit with me.
I sometimes don't actually understand or gage people, I'm not defending myself I can admit when Im wrong but I don't always feel like I'm wrong though.
(“Don't message” ) For me is confusing because where is the time line, don't message right now, message in a few hours, don't message forever?.. Can't be don't message forever right, when we were just texting and laughing about some shit we found funny…
Or was you just playing and it wasn't funny?
I'm very unsure about people.
I'm what you call the stop gap friend the one that is entertainment while everyone else is busy, just come find me..
The only thing is, I know it I do but I always get attached to someone..
I'm to much, to loud and that's ok, everyone has their preferences..
I'm not Normal, my sense of humor is not normal.
Im still that kid at heart that calls everyone their friends even if they personally don't think they are my friends.. They are a friend to me..
Probably I should work on that.
I think I always count friendship months because I want to know and never forget how long someone has been in my life for.
Do you know how fun that 1st week of a new friendship is, that first week of endless questions I love questions.
I reflect on the fact that I’m to much for people but someday I will be just right.
I’ve trained myself to be loud, to be fun, to not be lost on the crowd, it's easy for someone like me to get lost in the crowd..
Today, while I think about A.J and think about the wonderful time I had with her in our friendship I will appreciate all memories.
We are all just passing through peoples lives, a week a month a few years and maybe if you're one of the lucky ones someone will past through your life and be your forever..
My Favorite person knows me inside out and it's only been 7 months, she's my smile every day but my biggest smile on the 20th of Each month.
She cares about what I'm into, she counts with me, she tries to make me like myself just that little bit more, I like who I am when I'm her Ambs, Her Ambubble.
I'm so greatful for her..
And that's the end of my 20th reflection..